I’ve lost it. I’ve lost all motivation. I’m not even trying anymore. I feel like I’ve given up. Four months since I quit smoking and I have not lost any weight. I haven’t gained any either but I don’t even give the slightest crap about not gaining, seeing as I’m not losing. I’m not making any progress. I’m so sick of this!! I can’t motivate myself to change and I don’t know what to do. I want to give up. I want to stop caring at all because all I am feeling right now is disappointment. I really want to be there for my Mom, but she is feeling the same way, we both just sort of stopped trying.
I keep making excuses.
I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to try.
How do I get it back? I was so sure before. I did so well, I was wanting to work out, and walk and I was tracking, but it’s all just pointless. I’ve been tracking and walking for months and I haven’t seen any change.
My whole life just seems to be at a stop right now.