Weigh in is tonight and I’m sort of terrified. I did really well this week food wise, I tracked everything and I walked a lot. Today though we had a meeting at work and I ate 4 starbucks baked goods!!! 4!! That’s far too many. Thankfully the portions are tiny in comparison to what they sell you at the store, but that’s still a lot. I’m just so scared after having such a massive failure last week. I thought I was going to succeed and do so well and then I just bombed. So I’m sort of wavering today. I kind of feel like I’m going to be ok, but I want so badly to be down.
That makes me nervous for weigh in. I usually try to eat as little as possible before I step on the scale, but they had my favourites and I just couldn’t resist.
I’m not sure how I will feel if I am up. I might just break down in tears. But maybe I will accept it and move on. I just need to figure out how to pull myself out of this limbo. It just feels like it is unending and I really don’t think I can handle the yo yo anymore.
I was sort of debating on using myfitnesspal for awhile. Maybe a bit of a change from tracking weight watchers points? I’m still paying for weight watchers, the meeting are kind of nice and I like the website, but this might be easier. I can add some friends from a website that I follow… and I like that it gives you “streaks” like it cheers you on for managing to track every day! That’s what I need, a reward for tracking every day.
Here is another thought I had. My Mom and I have a rather simple menu planned for this week, down to my lunches being simple tuna sandwiches. I think next week I’m going to have to make an exciting new and fun salad!! Try something different!!!
Well thankfully my Mom will be there tonight, so she will help me with whatever happens. I’m hoping that being off my period will be enough to help me go back down.
Anyway, that’s just a minor update. After weigh in I think I will have more to say one way or the other.
Positive thing of the day: I’m wearing a really pretty dress today, and everyone seems to like it. Also I’m working on a duty today that allows me to listen to my podcasts all day. Less than 3 weeks until I go to Toronto!!